It's a dog's life

There's something about dogs that just makes me smile. I think it's their sense of loyalty and wanting to please their owners. Unlike cats who think they're our owners and we gotta please them. I got 2 of them. If I were living on a ranch I might get a couple of dogs of my own but as it is, pixel dogs are all I can deal with.

Yesterday I visited the VKC Dog Park.

That's a lot of dogs and they were begging me to adopt them. As soon as I landed, they were all rushing to greet me. Omg did I feel wanted. I'm amaze I resisted.

Tommy in Progress

I made some facial changes to my male avie-prop. I also revert Moon back to her curvy self. I just feel anorexia when I see her in the medium-mesh-approved shape.

I got that hot outfit at the men's fashion fair. E-clipse. Shoes included.

Are my hands too big? Hmmm....

Dancing.

Headshots

Playing with the pixlr photo editor is so much fun. I think I'll change my profile pic again:)

Misery

The last time I remember feeling this way was when my father died. Grief. I didn't immediately felt it. It came to me a few months later one afternoon while I was preparing lunch. I looked outside the window and saw emptiness and then my tears were falling. I still think about that moment and I think it was because I felt like I failed him. I wasn't somebody he could be proud of. I grew up being angry at him for pushing me towards something I didn't want to be and did my best to foil his future of me. I won but I failed him. When he died I felt regret for not fulfilling his wishes. It is my life I know, but the feelings just don't go away, does it?

I remember watching TV and this woman said to her workaholic ex-husbands, All I ever wanted was someone to listen to me.

Writing this is kind of therapeutic for me. I really want to be my cheerful self again.

I was playing with the QAvimator and after a lot of trials and errors, I got this pose. I still can't figure out why when I re-edit a pose, I'd be jerking. I really wanted to smooth out the ugly wrists:(

Colour Challenge Week13-Tea Green

Size M

Resistant is futile. My avie had a full makeover. Shape, face, skin, major boob reduction(cries) and all that jazz. I am now a very skinny and tall size medium as told by this very sexy mesh dress. I wanted to make it to size small but I looked too emaciated. Anyway I look very very not me so that's good I think.

[08:33:35] [OO] Avatar Examiner 1.2: Height: 234cm (7 feet 8 inches) counting your shoes

[08:33:35] [OO] Avatar Examiner 1.2: (You are gigantic for a male and enormous for a female)

LOL

But, next to an 8ft tall man I am still short. I still haven't done doing plastic surgery on Tommy.

Yeehaw!

Line dancing at the Quasar Country Saloon. I dunno what it is but I really love listening to country music. Some of the lyrics are so hilarious and some are just about reality.

Stupid

Sometimes I think that feelings are over-rated. Isn't it better if we are all logical beings? Unfortunately, feelings are what make us individual people. I cry at the sad movies, I cry looking at sad pictures, I cry at faded memories. No matter, these feelings are mine. They give me choices, right or wrong coz for that moment they were the right ones for me. You make the bed you gotta lie in it. Something like that. Years and years later you gotta live with it especially if that is the only thing you ever know. Only young idealistic people will think it's never too late.

Some day

I thought I was all cried out but some day just brings me down again. A word, a memory can just trigger it off. It doesn't help when everyone else is getting the cold and I'm just waiting for my turn.
Anyway, I'm getting obsessed with the shape sliders. The hardest part is the nose. On some skins, no amount of tweaking can get rid of the shadows or the weird skin sticking out and that is so frustrating.

Tommy is so handsome, but look at his nose:( I'll get back to him when my eyes uncross themselves.

Playing dress-up is more fun.

Party Girls

Some poses I bought at the Apple Spice Store. They're very affordable that it makes me and Carter wanna party!  I was playing with the sliders again. Small shapes makes taking pictures easy.

Thanks to pixlr or I'd never be able to do that graphics.

I've always made my avie noses small and short coz that's how it is in rl but when I was playing with the sliders, I came up with this face. I think I'm gonna walk around in this shape for a while.

Can't resist playing with pixlr again:)

Tea with Miss Carter

When I was a young girl, I used to play with my barbies all the time, sometimes I'd force my younger brother to play with me, but most times it's just me and my barbies. Fast forward a few decades and I'm back to playing alone with my barbie-avatars. Some things never changes.

Calas Galadhon sim is such a beautiful place. These sim-chain is one of my favorite places to go to. It's peaceful and quiet and nobody bothers you there.

I love pink. I was wearing this when I went dancing at the Black Horse Country. There was a jeans and tee contest. I didn't win but the music was good and what a great crowd.

Back at home I found Mark on the floating deck with the dogs. We used to role-play together back in good old Nor(not always good but I kind of forget).  I consider him my younger brother now and it's always great to talk to him when he has time. Now we're both retired from role-playing.
I have peace of mind being regular people in sl.

Color Challenge Week12-St Patrick's Blue

Dresses for skinny girls

I really love these ultra high Kyoot wedges and eventhough me and my skinny alter ego sidekick who-looks-good-in-mesh prop are already too tall I still want them! The price was irresistible too.

And here she is again wearing mesh.

I've demoed a lot of beautiful mesh outfits and always I would have to move the sliders for the dresses to fit. These dresses aren't cheap either, so to me that is not worth it. Until somebody makes mesh dresses that I don't have to spent time scrutinizing my avatar to check for poking skins or make me look I'm wearing a sack, I will just have to wait until the technology arrives. Till then my prop-avie gets to wear the affordable mesh dresses.
Of course there are exception to everything, like this beautiful long flowing gown from Purplemoon:

My boobs look great in this gown:)

Guest rooms

I finished decorating the guest rooms.

This is a girly room.

Not so feminine room.

My guys

Blake

Neil

Joe

Color Challenge week11-aquamarine

When I typed 'aquamarine' in my inventory, this is what I got....

I played around with effects from pixlr.com to get this picture.
But I think the color aquamarine is this:

The color of the sea.
Or maybe this:

There's blue-green in that tunic.
I should just be a mermaid...

Believe

One of the things I like to do in SL is collecting poses for picture shots. Only recently I found out how to put the poses into posestands so that other avatars can use them too. This also helps me reduce my inventory. I still haven't figure out how to add couple or multiple poses. 

I was going for a rocker chick look with black leather outfit and all that but yesterday I spent all day at the Black Horse country listening to country music and this is what happen... Maybe next time.

Blue Onyx

The Donna Flora Blue Onyx set is my first ever Donna Flora jewelry. I've seen her creation before but I've always thought they were too impressive for everday wear and I just like to wear jeans and a blouse. But when my sl in-laws were celebrating their second anniversary, I remembered I had this Azul gown with the low back which would look great with this set.
Now I have a couple more of Donna Flora's sets and I wear them with my jeans and blouse. This is SL after all so what if I look mismatched.
I had to do a lot of modifying with that capped sleeves so that they won't stick under my arms too much when I took these pictures.

Color challenge week10-Avocado

I happen to have a couple of avocado clothes in my inventory from Sn@tch: Tweed Capris and the Granny Sweater both in Avocado.

Keeping Busy

My mind likes to wander and wander. Think about things that aren't there, think about things that are improbable.... just think about anything that will make me depress. I really have to remember that most things are just out of my control and there's nothing I can do about it but ride the wave and hope I don't crash.
So one of the things I like to do is landscaping. I can't do that in RL coz my mom has monopoly on our garden so what's left is my plot in SL.
It's still a work in progress: