Thursday, May 10, 2012

My Inner Self

This month Miss Carter will be 5. Means I've been addicted to sl that long too. It started as just a roleplay tool where I want to shoot and kill other cartoon characters.

Now I think of sl as a community where real people escape from the stresses of rl. Some stuffs happened to me in sl recently and I chose to leave the roleplay community because it was fake within a superficial world and I don't know who my friends are and who were stabbing me in the back. Yes, it's just like in real life but in a roleplay community, if you mess people up, you can just say it was all roleplay and you get away with that excuse.

I can't say that I am the same in sl as I am in rl. I want to be a better person in sl. That is my fantasy. Perhaps because I feel inadequate in rl, I want to be this better person. I want to be a better daughter, I want to be a better friend, I want to be a better wife. I want to be somebody who makes people happy.

I don't want to be a mother in sl because I know I am already a darn good one in rl.

People chooses sl to be whatever they want to be. It's their right, but it's a shame they would choose to be bad because somehow, it reflects on their inner self.