An empty house is not a home

It was hard taking down the pictures in the house. All the memories. I would have left them up till who knows when but this morning when I logged in, I received a note from an estate manager that I had to take down the ban lines on my land and that they would provide me with a security orb. Then when I contacted an estate manager, I was told that all their security orbs wasn't working. So I said, "Great thank you." I was thinking to myself, if their security orbs weren't working, why the hell was it offered ? I didn't want strangers traipsing all over my land because it was next to shops. I could buy my own I guess, but it's this kind of business manipulation that I hate.  Why offer it if it's not working?
I still have 3 weeks left on the land so for now it'll just be an empty house. Just like how I'm feeling right now. I have no idea what I'm going to do next. Carry on renting or not.
*update, I got my security orb last night, 11/4

This is no virtual game, I can't restart again. Just like in rl, this virtual life, I have to  ride the wave and hope I don't crash. Sure we can kill people and they'd still live but they still feel anger when they lost the fight. Yeah, we feel pleasure when we f**k our lover even if it's just all pretend or acting or roleplaying or whatever we wanna call it. We feel humiliated, betrayed, lonely, exluded... all the feelings we would feel in rl and for those masochistic people, a place to feed their ego because they know we would feel what they want us to feel.
Why am I writing this? Sometimes, when I write, things becomes clearer.
I don't need to be in a roleplay and pretend to be somebody else in this virtual life. Should I care what people think of me? No. It is, afterall, another extention of myself. Perhaps the darker part of me that I would not allow myself to experience in rl.

Easter hunt at Purplemoon

I couldn't find one item during the hunt but it was still a lot of fun. Only last week I had managed to keep my inventory down from 40K to 34K. Seems like it's climbing back up. I also have a folder that says unopened gifts.

I forgot to take these pictures on high graphics so they're blurry :(

And that is a picture of me and my slmom dancing together on her rezz day. She really is a mom, always there for me since the beginning.

Color Challenge Week15-seashell peach

Some peachy coloured tops and dresses.

Kill the bot

I've been wanting to do this forever. I love science fiction. I love the logical process eventhough I am neither logical, discipline or meticulous but the thought of it all appeals to me. How marvelous to be perfect and that's what I imagine a robot-humanoid would be.

You know how it turns out in the end of course. We are our own worst enemy coz we created the perfect being and now they wanna annihilate us.

Woot!

Easter Town 2012

I went to Easter Town 2012 today and there was a free backpack that comes with the hunt. I suddenly remembered that I have a few more in my inventory.

Okay, the first one isn't a backpack.
I found some poses from the hunt too.

This is he loves me, he loves me not. Of course.

This is let it rain. I didn't finish the hunt. I couldn't concerntrate.

I did the Peep Racer. I have no idea what that is. We don't ride chickens where I come from.

Or just take pictures.

Lonely but Not desperate

I've been a loner all my life. I'm one of those people who actually prefers being alone and there is no need to be sorry for me but, occasionally I do feel lonely but not desperate enough to look for one night stands just to fill up the space. Instead I'd go hang out in some crowded sim so that I won't feel alone or so lonely and listen to the music and the chat and I'd sometimes join in the conversations.

Of course, when I had a companion, it was better but that is neither here nor there.

My first ever best friend when I was 9, exhorted money from me because she somehow managed to convince me that I lost her pen. To this day I am amazed at my naivety. Then there was this best friend who had to leave school because she didn't get the good results. There was this other best friend who stopped talking to me when she started going out with my ex. I didn't care about that but I did care that she stopped being my friend. By then I told myself to hell with all the BFF bullshits.

I don't know what it is about that hat, but I love it.

 

Color Challenge Week14-Royal Purple

In the beginning of the week, I had already prepared this pic for the challenge. I was a girl scout:) This gown is a group gift from The White Armory. Lovely, lovely dress.

I remembered when we weren't allowed to wear purple or yellow at weddings coz that might offend some blue-blooded people. Geez.

Then yesterday I remembered I have this dress from Icing.

I would have kept the skirt on but my thigh was sticking out and how convenient, the outfit came with garters and socks. I wanted to look sexy and all but I think I managed to look like, "Where the hell is my hubby?" as I stare at the phone. Only the cat is happy coz I'm stroking her.

Anyway, I got tired of moving my avatar's limbs so that is the best shot I could get of her.

I do know the difference between real me and avatar me.