My Inner Self

This month Miss Carter will be 5. Means I've been addicted to sl that long too. It started as just a roleplay tool where I want to shoot and kill other cartoon characters.

Now I think of sl as a community where real people escape from the stresses of rl. Some stuffs happened to me in sl recently and I chose to leave the roleplay community because it was fake within a superficial world and I don't know who my friends are and who were stabbing me in the back. Yes, it's just like in real life but in a roleplay community, if you mess people up, you can just say it was all roleplay and you get away with that excuse.

I can't say that I am the same in sl as I am in rl. I want to be a better person in sl. That is my fantasy. Perhaps because I feel inadequate in rl, I want to be this better person. I want to be a better daughter, I want to be a better friend, I want to be a better wife. I want to be somebody who makes people happy.

I don't want to be a mother in sl because I know I am already a darn good one in rl.

People chooses sl to be whatever they want to be. It's their right, but it's a shame they would choose to be bad because somehow, it reflects on their inner self.

Turtles and fishes

I used to dream a lot about fishes. Imagine a house full of swimming fishes, and I'm in it. Like an aquarium I supposed. Now I'm dreaming of turtles. Lots of turtles in a big shallow pond. I guess I'm old. Turtles do have long lives. Not sure that's a good thing or not, having to stay alive a very long time.

Most days are really stressful. People tell me I'm lucky having my mother live with me and they think we're both alike and great buddies. We are as different as oil and water and I hate that my mom likes to compare me with everybody and you'd think that I'm no longer an impressionable kid, I don't hurt anymore. It hurts. Makes me feel like I'm 6 years old again. Don't get me wrong. I love my mother and I'd never purposely say or do something to hurt her feelings, but everyday she makes me sad. It's so difficult to live with people who are never satisfied. It's so difficult to try and make my daughters not be affected by her complaints.

Over the years, I've learn how to hide my feelings. I guess that's why I suddenly had that dream.

So I run away to a place where I can hide and stop thinking.

I finished decorating my balcony:

The fish pond I bought from Funky Junk at the Culture Shock event. So are the planter and wall block at the corners. I don't know why the fishes are shy. That frog is really loud.

I also modified the apartment to fit in a kitchen. Not that my avie will ever use it, but somehow it looks more complete. No space for a dining table, but there is a 1L breakfast table for two out on the balcony which I bought from Bazar.

Ricielli Love Mommy Hunt

Miss Carter went to the R.icielli Love Mommy Hunt because she is the skinny one in the family. It was an easy hunt. The pink heart was big and plushy. Lots of mesh.
Here are some pictures of the clothings I had time to take:

Carter's using YS&YS Cara tan Ici and R.icielli night makeup/blue from the hunt.

Strapless Country Charm dress from SLC. At the time of writing, it was still 60L.

Colour Challenge Week18-Pueblo

Pueblo reminds me of heat and cactus and then it reminded me of Indians and then I remembered I have this old outfit which still looks great after all this time.

This is a dress from Ivalde. I missed my old Belleza Aiko skin so I'm back to wearing it.

Another dress from Ivalde but I think it's no longer available.

Listening to open-mic at Kickin' Club.

Colour my world

I'm a fan of cheerful colours. Bright psychedelic colours really pleases me. I think it has something to do with living in the tropics. Everybody here loves to wear prints. Even for formal occasions. Men can either wear their boring outfits or they can wear batik shirts.

Mimikri is having a sale right now and I went a little berserk.

I still have a few more, but posing and taking pictures can take the whole day and that's not fun to do.

40 days to fix my bachelorette pad

Some wives mourn the death of their loved ones for 40 days.  Some people believe that you can get to know a person well in 40 days. I procrastinate and feel sorry for myself for 40 days. Just before I started writing this, I told my daughters again that I want them to never be a housewife or they'll die of boredom like their mom. I've said that so many times, I think I've succeeded in brain-washing them.

I finally decorated my skybox. I've always loved the Manhattan skybox from Rebourne. It's small and perfect for just me.

I like these sofa. They're big and plushy and loaded with lots of textures but their sit animations are all messed up I had to adjust the poses. Not good for asking people to sit. Not that I'll ever invite anyone up.

This is what I wanna do, but since I don't drink alcohol, I'll just pose for a picture.

The new Purplemoon mesh dress from the Bestyle Gypset event. I love the colourful pattern which is why I didn't mind squashing my boobs into that tight dress.

My small bedroom. Cozy I think and a little bit messy too. Eating chocolate in bed is not a good idea coz you might forget to brush your teeth afterwards and go straight to sleep which is just bad. But since I'm never gonna have teeth problems in SL.... I think my cat and dog are falling in love with each other.

Shop and Pose

I need to start cleaning up my inventory again. Every time I tp to another sim, I'd crash. That really isn't a recipe for good moods and I've been especially down a lot and trying hard to keep it together. Some people drink, some people sleep around, they all self destruct. I spent...

That's my take on this week's colour challenge, thistle. Something in pink and purple from Sn@tch-N-Grab Special Calypso.

Everything that's on sale for the RFL seemed to be in shades of purple. This is from MysticHope, named Sheeyla Bordeaux. I'm ashamed to say, I've never heard of this store before.

This gown isn't part of the RFL but I loved it so much, I had to get it. It's from {Elysium}, named Ilithyia in Pink. I've never heard of this store either.....and I thought I was a shopaholic.

This is from Purplemoon, Boho Look1 for 55LThursday.

This is a hunt item from Paris Metro, Feast French Lace Gown.

While I was writing this up, I was also listening to live music:)