Colour Challenge week17-shuttle gray

I've had this old Gothicatz outfit in mind since early this week.The black heart bag and earrings are very old gifts from GF. The shoes are also old stuff from Pixelmode. I bought the fatpack. I got tired of trying to find the right colours all the time. The new stuffs are my hair from Kik, which reminds me of my daughter's and those black nails are from Purplemoon.

Just go with flow(another rambling post)

My brother had so much to look forward to and yet his life was cut short, leaving behind his little children, his pregnant wife and yet me, who has finished accomplishing my purpose, lingers on looking forward to nothing in particular. I still don't understand the reason. I'm sure there is a purpose. I just can't find it yet.

It did make me think of SL though. Even our unknown online friends, even if we don't know who they really are, should matter to us. Didn't I laugh and be happy with them? Didn't I feel sad when they are sad? My feelings transcend my physical being. I don't think anyone should belittle the emotional experience we have in this virtual life. Just like rl, there will be boring days and days I wish I would just die ie delete my account but I won't because I find it interesting how I can handle things here and take it back to the real world. I guess I can say that SL saved my rl:) I guess I can say I've matured!

Sorry if what I write doesn't make any sense but words are not flowing good for me at the moment. I wanted to remember this day.

I've been wearing this outfit a few days now. I might as well take a pic.

My Brother

19/12/65-16/4/12
Even in death you are good to us, reuniting mummy an me with long lost relatives. Love you.

Colour Challenge Week16-Bright Turquoise

Same Sn@tch dress but different skins, YS&YS and Izzie's.

And Jack makes 3

I've been hanging out listening to live music. It was interesting. Trying to get some inspiration.

I was thinking of the Marlboro man when I did this picture. That is a guy pose I'm using and well, you know how guys like to smoke after you-know-what? I figured that girl would after she had shot some buck lol.

That mesh hair is from the wear grey event. I'm using the Aiko Belleza skin in tan. I really love this skin. It's like a chameleon. Reminds me of the Malaysian model/actress Nasha Aziz who can look malay, chinese or eurasian when asked. I included a picture link if about this malay girl:)

I never thought of myself as a romantic, but perhaps all this while I've thought me wrong coz here is a sappy picture of Carter and Tommy and Jack the dog.

Something is just not right with Tommy. I'll  have to take him back to the sliders:(

Horse Farm

It's a shame to leave a piece of land empty so I decided to do some work on it.

I tried to fly the helicopter but it was so hard to control I crashed into my neighbour's shop. Thank God nobody was there.

Belle belle's primmy Oat Mill Fermette and Horse Farm looks really awesome on the land. Urbanized's primmy Floating Deck looks out of place but I adore it. I would sit there all day long listening to music while I box up my inventory. All these builds I got during past Spruce Up Your Space events.

An empty house is not a home

It was hard taking down the pictures in the house. All the memories. I would have left them up till who knows when but this morning when I logged in, I received a note from an estate manager that I had to take down the ban lines on my land and that they would provide me with a security orb. Then when I contacted an estate manager, I was told that all their security orbs wasn't working. So I said, "Great thank you." I was thinking to myself, if their security orbs weren't working, why the hell was it offered ? I didn't want strangers traipsing all over my land because it was next to shops. I could buy my own I guess, but it's this kind of business manipulation that I hate.  Why offer it if it's not working?
I still have 3 weeks left on the land so for now it'll just be an empty house. Just like how I'm feeling right now. I have no idea what I'm going to do next. Carry on renting or not.
*update, I got my security orb last night, 11/4

This is no virtual game, I can't restart again. Just like in rl, this virtual life, I have to  ride the wave and hope I don't crash. Sure we can kill people and they'd still live but they still feel anger when they lost the fight. Yeah, we feel pleasure when we f**k our lover even if it's just all pretend or acting or roleplaying or whatever we wanna call it. We feel humiliated, betrayed, lonely, exluded... all the feelings we would feel in rl and for those masochistic people, a place to feed their ego because they know we would feel what they want us to feel.
Why am I writing this? Sometimes, when I write, things becomes clearer.
I don't need to be in a roleplay and pretend to be somebody else in this virtual life. Should I care what people think of me? No. It is, afterall, another extention of myself. Perhaps the darker part of me that I would not allow myself to experience in rl.